Truth

I love this girl so fucking much but she will never know. It’s an illegal temptation that sounds so stereotypical but I have a bad urge to put it out here because facebook is gay as fuck. Fuck not being to love whoever I want to love. I just want to free myself from these chains I call life and explain to her how I feel. Fuck this realization of who I am. I just want her alone. She is my friend and I want her past, present and future. But it won’t happen because I am a teenager. Anything that I want to happen never does because it’s all a hormonal manifestation of what I think is perfect. What I think is perfect is probably fucked, but at this moment I could give a rat’s shit less. I don’t want a picture perfect life, or a tumblr moment, moment for everyday of my life with her. I want that best friend that I can occasionally love the way I want to. I think it’s a simple desire but It actually isn’t. It breaks all the rules and laws of decency and respectability. Why can’t I be what she wants. I’m fucked.